My special place

[Snowie]

I've been trying to do some self care @fluffylight . Been watching some tv with the dog, did some reading and wrote in my journal. Taken prn, hoping they kick in soon.

[fluffylight]

I hope that you start feeling the light and that the light hasn't been dimmed down for too long!

Sounds like positive activities to be doing right now @Snowie

What is your paw pals name??

[Snowie]

I'm really tossed up about doing this emdr if it is just making things worse @fluffylight Know I should look long term, but it's hard to see that far in front. 

My dogs name is Izzy. She is a cavoddle. She is like the third child, and the most spoilt one!

[fluffylight]

Yes, I wonder how you feel about it @Snowie

I am open to hearing what your thoughts.. does writing up a pros/cons list helps make it easy to navigate the present and what it means for you in the future?

I acknowledge that it is hard to make decisions and look into the future right now 💛

Ahh Izzy sounds too cute!! Spoilt but too cute

[Snowie]

I could make up a pros/cons list @fluffylight Then again, maybe I haven't given it a chance to work yet.

It just makes some of the flashbacks so real. The one we were working on this morning is very persistent. Trying to keep it at bay is exhausting.

Prn's are kicking in, numbing me.

Izzy is spoilt, even my kids say she is the favourite child!

[fluffylight]

Yes, thats a good point to notice that there may be an element where maybe you haven't given it a chance to work @Snowie

Wow, that sounds really heavy to be holding onto. I can only imagine how hard its been with some of the flashbacks 💛 💛

How are you spending the rest of your day? I am noticing that its hard to keep at bay.

Haha then Izzy must definitely be the certified favourite chid !!

[Snowie]

It's hard to deal with the flashbacks @fluffylight I don't want to trigger anyone nor say too much that I get into trouble. But I need that debrief that I can't have.

I haven't got much planned for the rest of the day. I know I should do something to occupy my mind, but just want to curl up and forget.

[fluffylight]

Would it be helpful to email you if you feel like you need some space for debriefing? @Snowie 💛

[Snowie]

I don't know what would help @fluffylight I really feel at a loss.

[GezzaP]

Hang in there @Snowie  thinking of you. Hello @fluffylight