Lived Experience Forum

[BlueBay]

I've tried three support places and all busy or not open yet. 
hard to get help these days 😢

no wonder people give up 

[Gazza75]

It's definitely hard @BlueBay 

Hang in there as best you can 🙂 

[BlueBay]

I'm very angry 

I'm so p..... off 

I need to disappear 

I need to go now 

I am a failure 

hopeless and helpless 

[Eucalypt]

Hi @BlueBay 
I'm sorry that those feelings have come up for you again this afternoon. 

As a gentle reminder, if you're concerned about your safety right now or you'd like some counselling support, you can contact the following services:

Lifeline 13 11 14

Suicide Callback Service 1300 659 467

Please take good care today Bluebay and do reach out for support if you need that for yourself.

[BlueBay]

@Eucalypt 

I'm really angry at a lot of things. It's all coming up at once in my head 

I can't stop it 

I'm so overwhelmed with anxiety

i can't think right now 

I want to go away I want to disappear 

[Eucalypt]

Hi @BlueBay 
I'm sorry the feelings are so intense right now. Is posting on the forums helping you to manage your anger and anxiety?
I will email you shortly if you can check your inbox.
Take care

[Owlunar]

Hi @BlueBay 

I know  - it's all coming at you at once, - it must be exhausting 

So  - the..most important thing you have to do is breathe so close you eyes and take a deep breath and think 

If you did go away and disappear  - what then? What would that achieve and 

what would you do next? 

You would still be the same person with the same stuff so it seems to me you have to continue from where you are now  - you have the right to feel frustrated and anger  - trying to get help at this time of the year is difficult 

Keep trying to reach out for the help you need and 

You are seeing your team tomorrow I think 

We are all here to support you 

Dec 🦉

[BlueBay]

Hi @Eucalypt @Owlunar 

it's my stupid BPD thinkibg snd behaviour 

it's taking over 

I HATE BPD 

[Owlunar]

Of course it's your BPD and it's rotten  - who would want that?

Still that's what you have to deal with ☹

I understand  - you have no control over your emotions but when it comes to how you act  - wow!!  - all this chaos in your life for months and as rough as it has been and you are still here toughing it out 

Tonight though you need to talk it over with someone in your team  - okay  - that's what it seems like 

 But your emotions can swing up again when time passes 

But hard yards  - you are a battler 

Dec 🦉

@BlueBay 

[BlueBay]

I'm not seeing anyone support until Tuesday when I see my psychologist @Owlunar not seeing anyone tomorrow. 
I think the past month has caught up eith me 

I'm Mentally exhausted 

my BPD is not rational and it's extreme 

I don't know anymore 

I'm tired of trying